Pity Party for One Please

Almost 3 months has passed since I last updated! It's been a busy summer. And to be honest, I've been down about the status of this adoption, so blogging has been the last thing on my mind. It's just taking so long. They're only up to March 24, 2006. My LID is April 20, 2007. But since they are only doing a couple of days a month, I'm nowhere near to the point of getting my referral.

And to make matters worse, it seems that the majority of single moms that I connected with in the beginning of the process have received their babies or dropped out. Don't get me wrong. I am so HAPPY for those that have been matched or found their children in other programs! Many have switched to Special Needs and have found their children or have switched to domestic or other country adoption programs. Some were ahead of me in the Non-Special Needs line and have received their referrals. Whatever the reason, they are with their babies or about to get their babies, and I am thrilled for them. But I sort of feel like I'm out here alone all of a sudden. I know that's not true. I know there are still other singles who are waiting. But it seems like most are laying low like me, trying to live life without constantly worrying about whether or not this adoption is ever going to happen, putting their lives on hold for fear that any changes they make may put their approvals in jeopardy. To be honest, it just sucks. And there are likely many more years of waiting ahead.

So, yeah, I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself right now. I'm not proud of that, but it is what it is. Summer is winding down, cooler temps are coming (thank goodness!), and the holidays are around the corner. Time for me to snap out of it I guess. :)